On rare occasions after sex I would feel a sudden but brief sense of crushing loss that would reduce me to tears.
La petite mort is a French expression which means "the little death" it refers to the sudden release of energy from an orgasm and how it can cause a feeling of hopelessness, loss and tears.
La petite mort is also used to describe the feeling of dying a little inside after something traumatic has happened to you.
In the absence of intimacy and love I feel little deaths consume me. Like a tree gradually succumbing to a disease, each leaf that falls is a little death slowly stripping me of life and color.